Friend's just like a paper heart

Monday, December 8, 2008

rahasia kotak hati

Minggu Pertama

Aku jatuh hati kepadanya pertama kali melihatnya, bukan kerana keindahan paras rupanya dan bukan kerana apa-apa pun. Aku bertanya kepada hatiku mengapa, hatimu hanya terdiam tak terkata. Aku bukanlah seorang pengayat atau pencinta wanita tapi hanya lelaki yang baru mula menyentuh rasa mendamba di dalam hati. Alangkah indah jika bersua tanpa masa berputar. Angan kosongku menenteramkan jiwaku.

Minggu Kedua
Rasa di hatiku kini hanya tuhan yang tahu, rinduku pada dia yang tak ku kenali melampaui batasan waktu. Tubuhku menggigil dan perbuatanku terbatas, yang aku fikirkan di dalam hatiku hanya waktu untuk aku bertemu dengannya walau jelas ternyata sukar biarpun di dalam kampus yang sama. Aku hanya mampu memohon doa dari-Nya dan meminta petunjuk dari-Nya akar bekukan hatiku yang membara ini.

Minggu Ketiga
Kini aku masih setia menanti dan ternyata Dia menunaikan permintaanku, akhirnya
pertemuan yang tidak disengajakan itu membuka satu lampiran baru di hadapku. Namun
takut di hati menghentikan langkahku, ku buka mata dan ku buka hati. Dia muncul di
hadapku dan berkata,"..kad awak". Suara yang lembut itu mencairkan hati lantas jiwaku,
rupa-rupanya kad matrik ku terjatuh dari genggaman tanganku. Aku sudah tak terkata,
namun enggan kelihatan bodoh langsung mengucap kata terima kasih padanya.

Minggu Keempat
Sejuk kasihnya sampai ke tulangku, hingga jantungku kini berhenti berdetar,dan telah
ku yakini dia yang ku ingini. Pelajar tahun dua jurusan medic di CFSIIUM, hanya ini yang
mampu ku temui sedikit tentang latar belakangnya. Yang paling penting, seorang yang
tidak kenal akan arti cinta dan dicintai. Sahaja aku berdiri di hadapan 'Lab A' di dinihari
setiap hari semata-mata bagi melihatnya dari jauh dan sekadar melepaskan rindu di mata.

Minggu Kelima
Kini kegilaan ku semakin menjadi-jadi, aku membuka myspace~ku dan meng~upload gambar-gambarnya yang ku ambil secara sembunyi. Tiba-tibaku terlihat myspace~nya terpampang di dalam senarai myspace~ku. Darahku bergelora dan aku menekan butang enter ke profilnya, Puff!! sambungan internetku terputus. Aku cuba mengambalikan sambungan, namun gagal. Aku sudah lambat untuk ke kelas, lalu meninggalkan sendirian mimpi indahku. Sekarang aku bertekad untuk enggan membuka profilnya selagi aku belum berkawan dengannya.

Minggu Keenam
Kembali semula seperti hari-hariku, menunggu pagi di kala bulan dan menunggu malam ketika mentari. Wajahnya tidak kelihatan, aku mulai gusar, hatiku meronta-ronta. Tiba-tiba.. "Kenapa tunggu saya..", suara indah hadir di belakangku. Rupanya dia di benakku, aku bukan penakut dan tak akan selalu mengalah di balik hariku. "Saya cintakan awak.. Tapi jangan tanya kenapa kerana hingga ke hari ini pun jawaban masih belum saya ketemui.. Tapi saya tulus", kataku penuh semangat. "Mata awak tidak menipu.. tapi maafkan saya, saya terpaksa pergi.. awaklah di dalam kotak.." itulah kata terakhirnya sebelum pergi tergesa-gesa. Kini semangatku penuh membara, sepanjang hidupku serahkan kepada Dia..

Minggu Terakhir
Aku menunggunya seharian di tempat, masa dan hari yang sama. Namun kali ini dia benar-benar tidak muncul, penggantinya muncul di hadapku. Sahabat baiknya mengenali diriku dan berbicara denganku. Rasa pelik dan takut menguasai diriku.. Alangkah terkejutnya aku apabila sahabatnya memberitahuku, "Dia telah pergi untuk selamanya..Awaklah di dalam kotak..". Airmataku lantas mengalir dan maluku ku ketepikan, tangisku sepuas hatiku, dan rasa inginku teriak segala di benakku. Sedihku ini hanya tuhan yang tahu dan demi Allah ku mencintainya ke hayatku.. Aku tidak dapat menerima kenyataan ini, ku buka laptopku dan ku segera ke profil myspacenya yang sudah lama ingin ku buka.. Enter.. terpampang satu application di profilnya, animasi berbentuk kotak. Ku tekan, kotak itu terbuka.. Jantungku rasa ingin tercabut keluar, suaraku hilang tak karuan, akalku melayang mencari jiwa kosongku.. Animasi kotak yang terbuka itu mengeluarkan gambarku sewaktu pertama kali bertemu dengannya.. di bawah gambarku tertulis nota kecil.."I don't know why, but I love this guy.. But my time has come, I won't be able to hold on any longer.. this tumor's chasing me.. If now you're reading this note, maybe at this time I'm no longer in this tiny world.. Love u!".....

Rahasia Kotak Hati, Riff




tears of a girl..

If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldn't take
it anymore.

If you took her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being
herself anymore.

A girl won't cry easily,
except in front of the person who she love the
most,
she becomes weak.

A girl won't cry easily,
only when she love you the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cried bcoz of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the
rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cried because of you,
please don't give her up,
maybe because of your decision,
you ruin her life.

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Don't do this to a gal,
You may regret for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life,
she's the only one that love you the most.
Remember this lesson.

"Maybe God gives you a handsome, cool and macho face,
but bear in mind that.. The physical gift won't last forever..
Trust your heart that is more precious than your face..", Riff

This is what a girl told a guy..


THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TOLD A GUY :


If you see me walking on the road with
someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...

Its because you're not brave enough to
walk beside me.


If you hear me talking about him all the
time Its not because he pleases me

Its because you're too deaf to hear my
heartbeat


If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..

But because you're not there to catch me
fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..


Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with..


Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..


"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"


When you thought I wasn't brave enough to
walk
beside you

I was behind you every step of the way


Still filled with awe because of the
beauty that
stand before me


When you thought I was too deaf to hear
your
heartbeat

I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship


When you thought I wasn't there to catch
you,
It was because you never gave me the
chance

You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch


If you feel like you are nowhere,
I too am lost

I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side

Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.


WHEN I SAW YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...

WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...

WHEN I HOLD YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...

NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...

I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...


SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...
BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...

THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...



HOLD ON TO THE PERSON U LOVE...
BEFORE HE/SHE SLIPS AWAY...
AND U CAN NEVER GET HIM/HER BACK...